life

dizzy, busy, no time to think
6 months  gone by before you can blink

i try to think of what i've done
but when i search for news, i have none

nothing to show, here i stay
why did i bother with that hard work anyway?

weeks of hunting for houses turned up with nothing
bills and forms cast aside in the rushing

im broken please fix me
im falling apart

where to turn?
i dont know where to start.

do dreams ever come true?
i know they do because i married you.

can i wish for something more?
yes! yossi's  healthier than before

because he is stable i am free
to chase a new reality

its not always going my way
but we're making steps every day

Wall of Support

For Amalia and Miri with love:

When there is nothing left to say

You hold my hand

When there is nothing you can do

You understand

That your presence holds me strong

For what im going through

I’d choose 100 other paths

If I were able to

When you are at my side

I can cross the great divide

Away from the darkness that hides

The pain of this life

Im waiting for joy to be

But as yet I don’t see

Why this was meant for me

One day I’ll understand the reason why

But for now waves of heartache crashing by

I know you understand my pain

Its both different, And the same

Is there really something to gain?

 Hear me G-d:  this needless tragedy

I’d never wish it on my harshest enemy

And when the fear and anger subside within me

I’ll make it into an opportunity