A Prayer answered

a problem shared is a problem halved.  on friday i reached out on facebook for prayers and support, just putting it out there took a weight off my chest. i was able to relax and put my worries away for shabbos.

this week has been a whirlwind of activity. the house is buzzing with people of all ages- friends from out of town who i seldom see are staying over. its hectic but i feel so alive, surrounded by my dearest friends and biggest supporters.

 i took a trip with one of them to the ohel, it was brief and i was distracted because i had yossi with me but i knew that i had come to the right address.

while juggling this week's regular schedule on top of appointments and everything else, i somehow managed to daven  each morning, mostly because yossi was still asleep.

a new initiative that ive started with a friend is a gratefulness challenge (we adapted the idea from an article online). im exchanging daily texts with one friend, listing the things im grateful for

all of these things are small little things that add up eventually. when you do these things, over time your outlook changes. all these things  add up to just a few minutes in my day but im uplifted and i have more energy  and more will to get things done. im also more cognizant of Hashem's guiding hand in my life.

today in the midst of a full, high pressured day our entire plans for the coming days got a big shake up. normally such a change would put me in a tizzy  but im not upset one bit. i cant help but feel lighter, more free. im just marveling at how much sense it makes, the potential, the possibilities.i would have never gone in this direction, had Hashem not caused it. but HIS plan is SO much better .  its a wonderful feeling to recognize the divine providence, in something so small and mundane.I know Hashem is always listening but today i see my prayers answered.

A Prayer

im reading my email and ready to scream,
Another set back in this long drawn out process
The angry mama bear is starting to rise up in me
What have i not done, what would i not give
To get this sorted

My defenses are up and im ready for battle
 i take  a deep breath and let it out slowly
 im left with deep sadness

I offer up a prayer to G-d
I turn to my friends to carry that plea
Because i cannot do it alone

Carry my prayers heavenward
My hopes and dreams for tomorrow
So that we'll have what we need
For the people we were created to be
For the people we were created to care for
And for the people we hope to become

Im still staring into the unknown
My queries Not yet answered
I know not how and when
But im at peace because Hashem's got it covered