mommy miriam

barren and empty handed you prayed for me
but i dont know you

you  carried me for 9 months
but i feel as if we've never met

you dreamed of me since you were a little girl
but you are just a figment of my imagination

you waited for someone to call you  'mom'
but i dont see you when i talk to you

i've been without you for 27 years
i dont know any different

i searched and searched but i could not feel our connection
i felt so far removed

and then i gave birth to yossi
my very own bundle of joy

and only then i've begun to feel your presence
even though you've been watching all along

each time yossi reaches new milestones
i wish even more that i'd met you, i wish i could share with you

each time life gets overwhelming
i dream of you being  here to pick up the pieces

when i look at the photos of you holding me,
i see the same pride and fierce protectiveness that i have for yossi

ive experienced the unconditional bond that yossi and i have
and now i know you.

 and when yossi calls me 'mom'
my mom means the world to me